Through the Rain

Sometimes, I'm kinda envy those ppl who got aims, passions on their future and all the things they do. Envy those who got dreams.

But... Where're mine?

Where's my dream, Where's my aim? Where's my passion?

I'm like lost! Totally lost... I've wasted my 3 years time in Pre-U, however, the more I stay in Pre-U, the more miserable am I..

I chat with a fren who is in Australia now. He finished his Pre-U in half a year in Norway, then currently he's doing his final year of Biomedical degree course in Australia. He comfort me, and then he asked me, "What's ur ambition when u were still a child?" About my ambition, last time I wish to be a doc, but I never think of it anymore since I missed the chance to go to Russia.
Then, he asked me something what I wanna achieve, but I can't give him an answer. Sigh.....

I really dunno wut i wanna do now.. When time goes by, the more older am I, the more I wish to turn back time. Back to the -last time childish me-, rather than now... At least I'm happy with the life I'm having, the quality time I spent..Compare to now, as I do not know what am I doing all the while. Is it what I want? No!! Oh ya, one friend of mine said that I look "old", well...I agree with him, as if a person lost his aim, his heart no longer be young to accept all those challenges. Haha, so pathetic, the 20 year old me is an old lady...wakakaka~

Many uncles asked bout my stuff, my studies.. But I just kept silent! I dunno what to tell them, as the main reason is I REALLY DUNNO. Looking at them, most of them are engineers, chemist, pharmacist, architects...feel so envy on them as they enjoy their work.

Hope I can find myself back again.. I wanna have my dreams, aims and passions BACK! No JOKE!

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Yesterday, my friend sent me an email, title is "accident happened in Sg.Wang", that email really...geli! I wish I never see it B4. My mom called auntie who do business in Sg.Wang. She said the gal commit suicide 1 due to his husband(selling crystals in Sg.Wang) got another woman outside. Pity her.. should chant for her...to R.I.P -nam mo oh lei toh fat-

Share with u guys, it's one of my favourite song. When I'm down or whatever thing, I will listen to this song over and over again.


_Through The Rain_
By : Mariah Carey

When you get caught in the rain,
With nowhere to run,
When you're distraught and in pain,
Without anyone..
And you feel so far away,
That you just can't...

Find your way home.
You can get there alone.
It's okay.
What you say is...

I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again.
On my own. And I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain.

And if you keep falling down,
Don't you dare give in.
You will arise, safe and sound.
So keep pressing...

On steadfastly,
And you'll find what you need,
To prevail.
What you say is...

I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again.
On my own. And I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain.

And when the wind blows,
And shadows grow close,
Don't be afraid.
There's nothing you can't face.
And should they tell you,
You'll never pull through,
Don't hesitate.
Stand tall and say...

I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again.
On my own. And I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain.

And I can make it through the rain,
And stand up once again.
And I'll live one more day,
And I, I can make it through the rain.
Oh yes, you can.
You're gonna make it through the rain.